Hey there,

I have been pondering about this thought of mine for the past few days as i listed to this particular song... Each time as i listen to fireworks by Katy Perry, it always gives me the thought of people around me and around the World enjoying themselves as they usher in the new year, while i just can't seem to be enjoying it the way everyone does... As far as i can remember, i have never really enjoyed ushering the new year and it got to the extend where i broke down and started crying in church while people were busy hugging and smilling with their love ones...Christmas is another occasion, where it no longer have the magical cheery feel that i once used to feel as a kid.... We are half way through the year and a few months to go before 2011 comes to an end and 2012 becomes the start of a new year once again. Will that ever change for the better... Deep in my heart, it seems like im somehow yearning for company...