I have been doing loads of thinking lately especially pondering on this phrase "Life is like a wheel". No, it is not a new thought but i only began to realise how true it can be when i relate it to my life.

Recently i have been feeling like a loser in school. Like some lonely girl trying so hard to fit in. I often feel that people are judging me, laughing at me and making fun of me. I can accept the fact that i am ugly, but i cannot seem to be comfortable in my skin. I began to wear make up to school daily. I am not really sure what is wrong with me, but one thing is for sure is that i am very "people" consious.

It may be a negative thought, but a positive thought has come along. Even if you are a loser for now, you can never remain a loser for the rest of your life. Like a wheel rotating, in one minute, you can be at the highest peak where you will feel like you are on top of the world, at your happiest. At the next minute, you can be at the lowest point of your life, the darkest hours, the most depressing moment, where you are ready to give up. Like a rotating wheel, even at your lowest point, with a strong determination, peserverance and faith in god, you will still be able to get to the peak once again. It is like a young child learning to Twalk. You pick yourself up each time you fall.

On to another topic, I have been dreaming about having a Valentines dates since early November last year, lets say it has been four months that i have been wishing for a date on Valentines day. Tomorrow being the day, i am sad to say i won't be having one, but i am not going into any exageration. I going to face it as though it is another Monday. I know i am strong to overcome and go through this... I can be special in my on ways. I wish those celebrating Valentines day, that you will have a memorable, enjoyable and sweet one. HAPPY VALENTINES DAY YALL"