Hello there, all along, i have alway's thought that i have forgotten him and no longer misses him. But after today and having seen him frequently in the past two weeks, i feel tha i am going back to square 1 which all started in October. Let's see, that is about 3 months ago.

Although no positive vibe about it, but all i can really say that i really miss him. It feels as though i am having this super, huge, mega crush on him. I have tried my best and there is nothing more i can do but to hope for the best. Time is running out, we are left to a few more weeks before school closes for the holidays and he says Adios to RP for good. By then i am not sure if i am going to see him again in person. It will definitely be as though my heart has sunked right to bottom of the deepest ocean in the World. Not looking forward to that day seriously.

With Valentines day approaching and people fretting if they are going to have a date for that day, i seem to be putting up a tough and brave front. As though it will just be another day that i can easily go through. I am not sure about that.....I seem to be heart broken right before the horrible day where i will see his status change from single to being in a relaionship and last but not least seeing him with a girl in his muscular and strong arms.... I am seriously missing him badly....I wish he feels the same....

I wish i could be that girl...imma sad girl for now:(