I am all crushed, broken up and totally numb. Whatever i did seconds, minutes and hours ago was just not me... All it took was 1 or 2 postings to read that brought me down sooo instantly... I have no freaking idea why i was constantly reading the news feeds and his profiles for any updates only to end up being crushed.... I am soooo naive.....

As horrible as i feel, i feel directionless, not knowing where to go from where i stopped. Yesterday i was all over the moon, thinking it was me, now only to find out through a clearer and bigger picture that is not me.... I really dont wanna give up, but tell me what to do... Just as i predicted that i will be crushed, it has all come too soon and too much for me to bear.... I am all crushed up and helpless. God you have to help me. Why was i sooo stupid. I am not sure what i am doing.... I ate my food so fast that i had indigestion. I walked as fast as i could from school hopping to run home for comfort. I typed his name unknowingly on fb search.. While people are happily in love, i hoplessly waiting for my turn to come.

Lord just tell me what to do....

I can't say much more