Hello there, to those of you who are reading this( if there are any of you in the first place):)

Just got back from a confirmation camp( don't get me wrong, i was one of the facilitator, i was confirmed a few years back). Although my butt and legs are aching like sooo badly, i was really glad to have gone for the camp. I guess i was send there by God for a purpose:) I went there with a open heart and mind and was not bothered about the way i looked or even what were people's impression were of me. I gave my best to the my fellow groupmates whom we called our children for some strange reason even though we were just a few years older than them. And that's all that matter. I also took a meaningful lesson home with me.... Something that i really needed to know... i felt somehow i was afirm God.... indeeed God is great and praise him for that! Those were the words that i really needed to know to gain my strength and bounce back in life and move on.... We are his beloved.... and he will always love us no matter what. I thank God for that wondcerful experience... He came to let me know that i am never alone in whatever problems that i may face in life....he is with me and there are people who are in the same siuation as i am or even could worse than me.... I came to realise one thing.... there is a possibility that i had that srong urge to talk to him, it could be god asking me to do it... as it was something that i would never usually do....

Today, mum happened to have seen one of her friend's daughter who was 4 years younger than me, having a boyfriend. I was shocked at first.... or maybe surprised.... then mum went on to say that i had lose to a girl who was 4 years yonger than me in having a boyfriend....hearing that, it just wana make me cry, i was just trying sooo hard to laugh and fight back my tears, pretending to make it sound sooo funny.... i was not sure of how i was feeling.... in a day or two, i came to know of people getting into relationships....I braced myself and was reminded about the thought i had in camp....a saying that i crafted on my own.....IF NO MAN LIKES OR LOVE ME, IT IS OKAY BECAUSE GOD WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS... EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON:) AND I AM GOING TO BE OKAY:) STRONGER THAN BEFORE.... IF I HAVE TO MOVE THAN I WILL.... IT COULD BE FOR THE BEST OF ME:)