Okay i am as lazy as hell to view the previous post on my blog to check on when i last updated it.... Now i am learning to open up and and express what i need to say here. In the past it was often all confine to my heart or nothing else. But today i just had this great urge to write this out. In the next few paragraphs, i am actually writting this someone whom i do not really know. You may call me crazy and weird or obssessed or even a stalker but i dont care. If there is no way of telling you this, then this should be the only way. Call me a kaypoh or busybody or anything, all i need you to know is that, being a human being and having feelings, i feel you and i care. To this person whom i am writting to, all though there is a freaking high chance that you are never going to read this, but if you ever do, i hope it helps.

Hello there, firstly i am really sorry to be reading your blog.... call me a kaypoh again ( i wont be bothered about that), i may not know the entire and full story about what is going on in your life but after reading your entries, my heart really goes out to you as to how you are handling the whole situation, it is obvious that you are not handling it well but at the same time you cant go on this way.... if you are going to continue this way, you are not going to benifit and everybody around you and even yourself is going to suffer.

From what i read, and what it seems to me that you know what the consequences might be if you continue this way. Fella, you really need to open your freaking brains( im so sorry if i sound harsh) and find good help for yourself to move on. You need to know that you are really young( although i am younger than you) and while there is time, you need to get your life back on track in the right way. Please turn to God for guidance, i have been in a situation worse than that, a different situation but a really terrible terrible situation that no ones wants to go through, i turned to god and he was always there for me. * A DIFFERENT SITUATION DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU SHOULD STOP READDING THIS... PLEASE CONTINUE*....Like me, he will always be there for you too just like he did for me... dont lose hope fella... there are so much important and better things in life that you have to keep going for. For example a fure for yourself and your love ones. Dont be naive, think of your family that brought you into this world, there is no point in saying yes you appreciate them, you have to really show them how. Doing silly things is not going to solve anything( you should know that, i am sure you have heard that a million times).

Lastly, knowing that you are heartbroken and all, cry your heart out now if you need to and start a fresh tommorow. I know that it easy to say that, but think about it fella you have to brace yoursef up and continue to overcome the hurdles that you are going to face in life....Go out all there to help yourself, you can, given the support, but you have to make the change for yourself. Learn to love yourself . In the stages of helps yourself, NO MORE BUTS AND I CANT, IT SHOULD ALWAYS BE I MUST....make use of the support given from friends and family in a good way( dont vent your anger on them).... Trust me stranger you can do this, while she may have move on, YOU BETTER TOO.... God bless you fella and may you have the strength to move. God please help tthis fella... God let this fella read this...

Stranger if you ever read this post.... dont ask any questions unless you really need to... Like i said, being a human being, i care....