I hate to be writting this here, but i am left with no choice. I simply had to let it out. Whoever should read this post please seal your mouth.

Kristel and mum: I am so sorry that i have been causing you all sooooo much of misery for the past few days. I am really sorry to you Kristel about your teeeth. Although you may have forgiven me instantly and that its all mended, im still feeling very bad about what happened. Images of the chipped part keeps flashing through my mind, and i feel so lousy and heavy deep within, leaving me with sleepless nights. I wish i did not do that. I guess, this is something i can never forget. I have always been a bitch no anything close to a good and big sister. I feel so bad and it broke my heart to see you crying and not wanting to go to school for that particular day, despite that you were brave to go to school and deal with it.

Mummy i am feeling bad, that despite the things that i have done, you still manage to forgive me. I am really touched by that though i feel i dont deserved it. I felt what i have done was unacceptable. You had to bear with everything for my sake. And i caused you and kristel sleepless nights. I am really really feeling the pain deep inside for the very first time, it hit me hard. I am really sorry i broke both your hearts.

Daddy: I really do not know what to say to you all i can wish is that you put yourself in the shoes of me, mummy and kristel. I wish you know how we feel. Although you have been acting like a monster at times, but i know deep down, you are a nice man, father and husband if you reall want to be and act like one. It breaks my heart to see how you treat us. I have never express my thoughts this openly until now. Me, kristel and mummy have always been trying to be good to you and be the best, but it seems not to be going anywhere. Things will only look up for this family if you change your ways.

After writting all this, i just want you mummy, kristel and daddy that you people will always be my family and i really love you all. I will try to be the best that i can be:)